Missing Dad

by Not Well Versed

10.31.10 Woke up with thoughts of my dad this morning. I don’t know why but I feel like I’ve missed him more this year than I ever have since he passed on over 20 years ago. I saw his face today. His smile so big that his eyes chinked… I heard his laugh and smelled his hands. I love that he lives in me still even though so many years have passed. I’ve lived my life now more years without him than with him. I only knew him for the first 11 years of my life before he went to be with the Lord. Now more than twenty years after his passing his spirit is becoming more alive in me than ever before. I find myself daydreaming often of how he would react to a certain situation. How much he would have enjoyed knowing my husband as his son-in-law because of all that they have in common. How much my daughter and nephews would have adored him. I think about how many laughs we will never get to burst out at one of his funny faces, jokes or gestures. How many smiles will never be seen since he’s not here to put them on our faces. But oh how blessed I am to be surrounded by his seeds… my brother and sister and my daughter and nephews… all descendants of his and all brighten my life in a way that is so special to me because they carry a part of him within them. They have silly comical tendencies about them that make me smile and laugh all the time. Its a beautiful legacy to pass down to generations that he instilled in us… the simplicity and joy of laughter!

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